So it has been almost 3 months since I have posted on my blog......part of it is because I was finding my place in this new world and the other part has been b/c it has been such a struggle. I am really finding it hard to find my place here. Some days are good and some days I want to run to the airport and jump on the first flight home. I know that I have found my place in this world and the "teaching home" that I thought I wanted to get away from is really the place that I truly want to be. This is much harder than I thought it would be and sometimes it is hard to talk to my family and friends back home b/c I don't want to cry when I hear them. I am not miserable but sometimes you feel very alone being in a very foreign land. I do know that this is good for me b/c if I can survive this for nine months anything else will be a breeze. I miss my family and friends and I really do miss my students back home. I didn't realize how much i enjoy getting satisfaction from making a difference in my students lives and here I just don't get that. I take that back, I do get satisfaction when my students come up to me and speak to me in English but it just isn't the same. I am definitely a person that will always teach in an urban school. I know that isn't what my family wants to hear but I have found this to be true of myself since i have been over here. I just know that that is my true calling. I know it is a more stressful and emotional path but I think it is the path that God has made for me.
That being said I have made it through 3 and a half months and am really looking forward to our holiday in January. My parents will be meeting me in Istanbul and it should be a great 2 weeks. I really loved Istanbul when Markita and I went in November and can't wait to spend a longer time there.
